My day realization...

Its good to be sensitive ... to be a softee I know but it hurts.
I woke up with a great disposition. Not wanting a fairytale situation of hubby waking up first and kissing me and remembering it's mother's day today. Or my kids going on my bed and surprise me with kisses and hugs before I even wake up. I am pass that idealistic hopes for almost everything and anything.

That's what I thought!

I was so caught up that since it's Mother's day today... it is like a holiday = for everyone that is. But seeing this man ( a carpenter ) in front of my sister in laws' door I wondered. Why is there a carpenter here at a sunday... a mother's day at that?
I asked my sister... and she said that man came in early today and asked if he can do some fixing jobs in her house since he needed to earn money for the coming enrollment of his kids.

I bled... I was hurt to realize that not all people is as lucky as me- as our family. That not everyone can take a rest for a day and just enjoy this day .. be with their wives, mothers, sisters or even friends.
How I wish everyone is living a comfortable life... I wish them food abundance in their table. I wish for everyone's peace of mind, for happiness etc.

Here in our village, roads and plumbings are being fixed by workers from Maynilad. I pity ( i dunno if this is the right word to use ) those men under the scorching heat.
When the workers in our area see some people drove in our garage they often ask for water . If I am there I hurry up the kitchen and give them clean , cold agua vida water... but others just point them to the faucet outside and let them help themselves.
There are alot of things I wanted to do for them ... I even plan to make them sandwiches sometime though I know some members of the family here in the compound will wonder why I even bother.

Why do I bother? I bother because they are human too. They deserve to feel important and they deserve a pat in their backs for a decent job they are doing so they have something to give to their family at the end of the day.

These situations / issues have been hunting be since I was in grade school. The very reason why I wanted to be a social worker... a volunteer in thypoons, floods etc. But that dream remains a dream... I was not permitted to be one when I was highschool. Not even during my college days. I once announced my dream of becoming a social worker after college ( I was in 2nd yr I think )... I remember the situation so well... I was sitting in the dining table smilingly said that but my dad looked at me and I felt his stare pierced my muscles. He raised his voice at me and said: " Tanga ka anak! Wala kang kikitain doon. Anong mangyayari sayo!"
I was so hurt that night but now I do understand where my dad is coming from. He is a father who is worried about his kid. Of course every parent wants his kids to be stable even before they leave this earth.

But I still wish he had given me a chance to be a part time social worker or a volunteer in my spare time. Because I know I'll still dream of working in the corporate world even if I do try this ... I wanted to earn - earn alot.. build my own company and still earn alot. I wanted a lot of money....

.... so in return I can help others who needs help.
.... its not easy I know. Its easer said than done.
.... there will be hurdles. Corrupt officials to face.

... sigh! Sad realization that care is not enough to help other people in the real world. I hate to say it but "Money do makes the world go 'round".... sheeshh cant believe I am even saying this phrase.

Kaya bukas....... Kailangan ko bumoto. Together with that vote is a hope that it will help us all have a better life today and tomorrow!

And today... I'll pray that God will give me wisdom to choose the right candidates with sincere agenda to help the country and their fellow men. Oh God! be there for me... be there.