My heart's been pumping fast since sunday afternoon. Until now, I cant explain how I feel. I feel worried, alarmed, nervous, all emotions mixed up!
I woke up not revitalized, maybe because I didnt get the rest I need. My eyes are closed but I know I didnt sleep. I kept on thinking why? whats making me feel this way?
I checked all family members ( including mom and dad ) they are ok. I should then be relieved.. but I am not. I am still worried.
Then I remembered my dear friend. I realized maybe I feel her. I am so sad that I wanted to cry - cry like I am the one who has problems. I feel the hurt she feels. The uneasiness - the betrayal - it hurts...
When I think of her I ask God, why this things needs to happen. I am anxious to know the answers right away. I know God has plans that is hard to understand right away. As I lay in bed, I think of her , I talk to God too... I asked God to comfort her since I am not beside her that night. Besides God knows better what she needs. I asked God to give her peace though she has problems. Make her sleep soundly at night and recharge her broken spirit. Make her understand and be patient for answers. To keep her going for her child ( at least ) .
Yesterday I went out with my sister.. bought 2k worth of Hello kitty stuff. I should be happy I know but my happiness was not complete. Its hard to be happy 100% when you know a friend - a sister is not doing ok. I can never dismiss the idea that someone is feeling so hurt. Never! Drag me to a party - I can mingle and pretend I am ok ... but inside I am broken like her.
I hope my angels send her my warmest embrace. An embrace that will somehow shield her for more unnecessary pains.
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