Please pray for my father in law : Dr. Fiorello Estuar

June 28, 2007
afternoon

My son came up to me and asks where his dad was.. I said he was in the office. He said ok and went out the bedroom na. But I knew that Tito Charlie came up our house and he was the one who was looking for Alfred that afternoon. I didnt feel it was something important since he didnt bother looking for me instead.

Around 5pm, I went down to the kitchen to fix some dinner. My maid came up to me and asked if I already knew what happened to "sir" ( thats how they call Dad). I was not thinking fast. I asked sinong sir? my maid replied: " si sir sa baba te... yung daddy nyo".
Ahh si Daddy. Kala ko kung sino. He didnt enter my mind because he was on vacation and was supposed to be back home by weekends with mom.

So I asked further...
Me: "why anong meron?" Pauwi na ba daw sila ?
Maid: di po ate. Kasi na-aksidente daw po si sir sa states."
Me: ano? kailan. sino may sabi ? bat di ko alam...
etc ... etc...

There are alot of wrong exchanges of statements about what really happened to Daddy. So Im cutting it and go straight to the real story.

Dad attended a convention in Canada and left Mom in L.A. since He'll only be there for a day or two for the said convention . Yesterday , he slipped on the stairs. Falls 6 steps and landed in the side of his face. I dunno what side. The impact made alot of pressure that.... that made his eyeball pop-out of his socket. He was rushed at the hospital ( i dunno what name ) and undergone surgery. He was said to be in ICU yesterday June 28.

I felt bad... I dunno what to feel. I 1st thought , he doesnt deserve this. He was so kind, loving , funny, basta he is the nicest person I've known for the past 10 years. He is an inspiration to me kasi ang sipag nya. Ang talino, ang bait.

I feel stupid and guilty after awhile. I already felt something will go wrong by the time they will be back home. I knew they will be delayed. I even talked to hubby about it days before this happened. I told him, I feel that they wont be back at the end of the month, Baka ma extend. HUbby listened and kept quiet as usual but he knew what Im talking about. He knew my ability to feel things good or bad.

I felt guilty because somehow I knew something will go wrong . Stupid because I cannot control the situation. I cannot do anything.

I wonder also why I wasnt told about it. Why they looked for my husband and not I? Is it because In just an in law? I dont get it... sorry but in our family this things doesnt happen. If you are part of the family - you are part of the family.
I asked hubby about it because I felt insulted. He too dont have the answers. He too felt bad about it.

oh well... lets just focus to Dad.

Please please help me pray to the lord that he'll be okay. That he can still see after the surgery, that he will not go into coma, no blood clots on the brain, no hemorrhage, no broken bones, no complications whatsoever.
I pray that he can come back home safe. That he can come back to work after he recuperate. Because I know it'll break his heart if he cannot practice his profession anymore. He loves moving, He loves working. I ask our dear lord not to take all these to him. I dont want him to get sad further. He just doesnt deserve it.. I know God knows what I am talking about.

7 facts about me ...

I was tagged by Karen ....

Instructions for this meme:

• Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about himself/herself.
• People who are tagged need to explain the 7 random facts/habits about themselves in their blogs.
• Then in turn, they need to choose 7 people to tag and list their names at the end of their blogs.
• The player needs to visit their sites too and inform them (say, by leaving a comment) that they have been tagged and that they need to read your (the player’s) blog to find out more about it.

Here goes:

1. I have uber cute toenails so much to the pedicurist' dismay - "nails are canvass for art, you're is too small!"

2. I eat alot but no one seems to believe me because of my slim stature. Tip: eat and then burn it people! BUrn baby burn!

3. I like to see my planner full of schedules all the time. Multitasking is my game. If I could fit lotsa activities in a day I would.

4. If im stressed, I clean.. I cannot declog my brain if I dont de-clog my room.

5. I am addicted to cats - love them - I am one of them.

6. I dont drink coffee. So please whenever we are in starbucks - its chococream for me okay?

7. I may seem innocent but I am actually naughty =P hihihi

I am tagging 7 of my friends: Kaye, Ces, Yvette, Kiss, Eliza, Yette, Cosette...

After trying my best to attend to everything...

School starts, I was bombard with tons of activities to attend to. Making my oh so busy life more complicated - but I humbly take on the challenge.

Challenge number 1 - tuesday Jun 19. It was sasha's 1st day in school , she wants me to be there till classes starts ... complication ? They are brought to school at 7:10am - school starts at 8am.
After they are dropped off - we go next to jason's school ...
Solution: talk to Jace that he will be dropped off first that day. He cannot clearly understand but he is trying... he is so clingy when I dropped him off. Good thing he didnt cry that day or my heart will break.

8am came... I can now leave Sasha in school. Hearts been pumping blood fast because my cooking schedule was altered. Came home 8:30am and need to finish cooking by 10:0am. Because I will go back to school and catch kyle's lunch by 11am. pick up jason and go back to the other school in time to pick up sasha.

Challenge no 2: Saturday schedule 10am dentist kyle, 9am-12nn orientation preschool, 2pm rockwell to pick up something with hubby and 3pm niece's birthday party.
As you can see they are all over-lapping. My friends keep telling me why fuss, just ditch some schedules. But I tell them I cannot. Im too responsible - hahahha.. nah I just find orientations important.

Friday came.. still I cannot decide. Cant think of a way to do all these things in harmony.
Then came a text from the dentist .. schedule was changed to 11am. hmm Thats pretty favorable... I can go 1st to the orientation and then hit off early and go to the dentist with kyle.
Then friday night came.. Jason is feeling sick.. coughing due to irritated throat and have sniffles. I figured, it'll become worst tomorrow based on my past experiences. So I decided to finally ditch the orientation - email the teacher - gosh after all those brain wrecking thinking to have a plan to attend the orientation - I will have to pass din pala last minute.

I didnt have a good night sleep. Jason was coughing on/off all night. I was there to observe him and being alert about a possible asthma attack due to colds. I was waking up every hour.
And it didnt help that Jason woke up very alert at 6am.... gosh! I kept on ignoring him as he watches TV and play with his toys but he was too noisy. He is giving me a headache. So I decided to wake up around 7:30am. I looked at my cell and saw a message that the dentist canceled the appointment today for a lame reason that the retainer's adjuster is not available. Nye! today lang nya nalaman yun? Obviously di siya nag che-check ng gamit nya nor check things needed to be done for a certain patient days before the appointment. Hay!

After all those worrying... trying to fit all schedules in one day ... nauwi lang sa wala.. sayang ang effort hay.

I kept my cool... stayed positive . And one positive thing happened to me this morning is an email telling me that my hello kitty orders are all available - yey! Hubby was right. Its good to have something great to look forward to everyday esp if things are not going the way you hoped them to be. So for my collection a bath scrub, kitty egg mold, car tray and hooks will be added.
Another week of waiting and hopefully to get my hands on that toaster that I am eyeing .

Thank god for life's simple pleasures amidst stressful schedules and workloads.
Great day everyone.

What makes Kyle so Smart?

People often ask me why is Kyle sooo smart?
I dunno how to answer it.. aside from telling people that I am lucky coz God gave me smart kids.

But I guess this is one of the reasons why.....

Study till you DROP! ( lol)

I was in front of the computer .. and he was at my back...
When I looked at him to check.. this is what I saw. T'was a funny sight but at the same time I feel sad seeing him so tired. Kawawa naman. I told him to sleep muna at his bedroom pero He said he's rested na... he'll finish up and then he'll eat dinner na .

Pix taken last Feb pa... Grade 3 sya noon.

Finally!!!! No more cries...

Its exactly 10days today that Jace is been going to school. And I am very happy to announce that this morning He went to school ( inside the premises ) alone. Not crying back to me. Yes!
I know he is also very proud of himself.

Xs:

Yesterday... as jace played with his tow truck. He sat on it and I was surprised that he made a sign of a cross and said amen before he starts wheeling it through our living room. Cute!

Im a cherry kiss lipgloss... thats exactly what I use hehehe =)

You Are Cherry Kiss Lip Gloss

You're a total girly girl who's every guy is sweet on. You take pleasure in the simple things in life, from cute t-shirts to stuffed animals. Any guy needs to match your romantic idealism to win your heart, which is why few have. No wonder Cherry your signature flavor. It's delicious, sugary, and fun - like you!

What Flavor Lip Gloss Are You?

Emotions: Blank? Im sad.

My heart's been pumping fast since sunday afternoon. Until now, I cant explain how I feel. I feel worried, alarmed, nervous, all emotions mixed up!
I woke up not revitalized, maybe because I didnt get the rest I need. My eyes are closed but I know I didnt sleep. I kept on thinking why? whats making me feel this way?
I checked all family members ( including mom and dad ) they are ok. I should then be relieved.. but I am not. I am still worried.

Then I remembered my dear friend. I realized maybe I feel her. I am so sad that I wanted to cry - cry like I am the one who has problems. I feel the hurt she feels. The uneasiness - the betrayal - it hurts...

When I think of her I ask God, why this things needs to happen. I am anxious to know the answers right away. I know God has plans that is hard to understand right away. As I lay in bed, I think of her , I talk to God too... I asked God to comfort her since I am not beside her that night. Besides God knows better what she needs. I asked God to give her peace though she has problems. Make her sleep soundly at night and recharge her broken spirit. Make her understand and be patient for answers. To keep her going for her child ( at least ) .

Yesterday I went out with my sister.. bought 2k worth of Hello kitty stuff. I should be happy I know but my happiness was not complete. Its hard to be happy 100% when you know a friend - a sister is not doing ok. I can never dismiss the idea that someone is feeling so hurt. Never! Drag me to a party - I can mingle and pretend I am ok ... but inside I am broken like her.

I hope my angels send her my warmest embrace. An embrace that will somehow shield her for more unnecessary pains.